oh my.
Today at school was Occupation Day.
I was planning on putting a flattened basketball under my shirt and carry around a couple of dolls to portray my future job of Motherhood. My mom seemed to disagree. For some reason, she was completely against this idea and wouldn't give me a reason why. I think it was because she didn't wanna see or even think about me being pregnant in Grade 10.
I was guilt-tripped into not wearing it at school but I wore in on the bus ride home. The people driving behind me where giving me weird looks. My brother was driving his car home and was at a stop light the same time my bus was and I showed him my prego stomach, and the person behind me just started laughing. To avoid being judged as a corrupt teenager I took out the ball and showed this man that it was indeed a basketball, which more laughs he nodded his head and gave me a thumbs up. The funny part was I was yelling at the window saying it was a basketball! and Read the side of the bus! We're a Christian school! haha Probably one of those, "had to be there" moments, but it was a good time forsure.
But on a totally different topic...
One thing I absolutely hate was the feeling I had today, the feeling of being the 3rd wheel. It actually makes you wanna kill yourself rather than being all alone and sitting beside 2 people groping eachother. My best friend makes me feel this way very often. Weird thing is the guy shes dating is my cousin... which makes things twice as awkward. Like the thing they do, is hug and stare at me in silence until I leave... really? If you want me to leave just say so, So I dont waste 1 min of my life in awkward silence. But sometimes I just leave and they wonder where I'm going... sometimes I really wanna reply, where do you think I'm going? Obviously away from this place where I feel like a single ugly wench. Like really? Can't you just refrain from such activity in public? I don't want puke.
It definitely made me feel like shit until I became entertained by a Mcdonalds visor and acting like I have downs :)
I was planning on putting a flattened basketball under my shirt and carry around a couple of dolls to portray my future job of Motherhood. My mom seemed to disagree. For some reason, she was completely against this idea and wouldn't give me a reason why. I think it was because she didn't wanna see or even think about me being pregnant in Grade 10.
I was guilt-tripped into not wearing it at school but I wore in on the bus ride home. The people driving behind me where giving me weird looks. My brother was driving his car home and was at a stop light the same time my bus was and I showed him my prego stomach, and the person behind me just started laughing. To avoid being judged as a corrupt teenager I took out the ball and showed this man that it was indeed a basketball, which more laughs he nodded his head and gave me a thumbs up. The funny part was I was yelling at the window saying it was a basketball! and Read the side of the bus! We're a Christian school! haha Probably one of those, "had to be there" moments, but it was a good time forsure.
But on a totally different topic...
One thing I absolutely hate was the feeling I had today, the feeling of being the 3rd wheel. It actually makes you wanna kill yourself rather than being all alone and sitting beside 2 people groping eachother. My best friend makes me feel this way very often. Weird thing is the guy shes dating is my cousin... which makes things twice as awkward. Like the thing they do, is hug and stare at me in silence until I leave... really? If you want me to leave just say so, So I dont waste 1 min of my life in awkward silence. But sometimes I just leave and they wonder where I'm going... sometimes I really wanna reply, where do you think I'm going? Obviously away from this place where I feel like a single ugly wench. Like really? Can't you just refrain from such activity in public? I don't want puke.
It definitely made me feel like shit until I became entertained by a Mcdonalds visor and acting like I have downs :)
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